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Trapped

I won't say, I should be happy, but at least I should feel better.
But all I can see are dark clouds, and this has nothing to do with the weather.

The barn is stacked with fresh hay, I found the perfect one for Aurora.
Stella and Precious are doing fine and so does my Angel. Even though he would love to be on the other side of the fence, with the girls.
Charly is doing well, no seizure in the past weeks, even Lovely started to eat again and there is hope, she will stay with us for a longer time. She is 15 years old, a good age for a cat, but I hope, she can enjoy some more years.
No sick animal, no real problems around.

My sons are working every day and are trying to help me, where ever they can.
I don't have anything to complain about ... but these damned black clouds.
Trapped into my own worries, don't know, what to do, don't see any direction I could take.

It would be great to have someone who can help me, working with Precious, but without the needed money? Useless to even think about.
If you don't open your wallet there is no help at all.

And knowing, someone is talking behind your back, telling shit stories, isn't helping either!
Well, at least I know who it is and honestly, I wish, from the bottom of my heart, that her bad talk will fall back on her.

So why do I have to go through this hard times? Am I not old enough to get a break from it?
I've helped people again and again and for sure, I won't stop helping, as long as I have the possibility to do it.

Hello Universe, isn't it in time to help me a bit?
Isn't it in time, to send me a little bit sunshine?

All these worries, the betrayal, for what?
Show me the direction I need to take, please!

Justice

Just to make it clear, I believe in justice!
And I don't have to do a thing, not to say a word, cause there is justice from high above.

Doing something bad, covering it up with "best intentions" don't make a bad thing good.
Real help looks different, something many people still don't see.

I've lost so much, believe me, more than I thought I'm able to bear.
But it didn't broke me down, I survived, it maybe made me stronger than I've ever been. The future will show it, I don't worry.

So, to everyone, special to YOU, just stop it with some covering up story.
Your intention wasn't to help anyone, not me, not my horses.

As I said, I believe in justice and no one can take this away from me.
There is a law, bigger than any law on this earth. No court has ever spoken any strong like that.
This law will never fail, never!

Bumblebee

Some days ago I was cleaning a bit at the porch on the back of my house.
And all in a sudden a lot of bumblebees were around me. I accidentally destroyed their nest, I hadn't seen it under the stairs.

So I got a little cardboard box, put the nest into it and placed a basket and a lid from a cat litter over it.
They accepted my work and took over :-)