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Here I am

Hello,

here you can see my beautiful stallion, my Angel
He was the reason, why I started a homepage about Curly horses.
Now, a lot has changed and I will write down this history.
The reason, why I deleted the whole page for this blog.



It's a history about love and lost, about good and bad people and all what happened to this day, I started this blog.
Of course I also will tell about all new things, time after time.


Mal wieder die Bloede, mal wieder die mit dem Aluhut

Es ist 4 Uhr in der Frueh und ich bekam kein Auge zu.
Die Gedanken rasten durch meinen Kopf, vollkommen ueberfluessig, da ich eh nichts aendern kann, und dennoch nicht zu stoppen.

Meine Mutter, meine juengste Schwester, ihr Lebensgefaehrte, ihr Sohn und wohl auch dessen Freundin, meine Nichte und ihr Freund, sie alle wollen sich unbedingt impfen lassen.
Meine Mutter knallte mir an den Kopf, sie waere verantwortungsbewusst und darum die Impfung.
Und sie glaubt allen Ernstes, es wuerde sich bald alles bessern, wenn die Menschen nur vernuenftig genug waeren sich impfen zu lassen.
Und der Hammer von ihr, die 23 Toten hier in Norwegen, das waren ja schliesslich alles alte Menschen.
Ja verdammt nochmal, was glaubt sie denn, was sie ist?
Und all die anderen Toten, die es bis jetzt gab? All die Menschen mit schwersten Schaeden?
Nur Kolleteralschaeden oder wie?

Ja, all die Toten, aber die anderen, die angeblichen Corona-Toten, die erwaehnte sie und wie entsetzlich das sei.
Warum schaut sie sich nicht mal die Todeszahlen all der vergangenen Jahre an.
Sie wuerde mit eigenen Augen sehen, dass die Zahlen sogar zurueck gegangen sind.
Aber das waere wahrscheinlich auch nur eine Verschwoerungstheorie.

Ich darf mir ihren Kram anhoeren, ihr Gegifte ueber all die "unvernuenftigen" Menschen.
Aber sie weigert sich, mir zuzuhoeren.
Dann kommt nur: Ich will von all dem Scheiss nichts mehr hoeren.
Bleibt abzuwarten, wer wirklich unvernuenftig ist und dieses Ergebnis wird leider nicht allzu lange auf sich warten lassen.
Und stellt sich die Frage, was denn nun wirklich "Scheiss" ist.
Nur befuerchte ich diese Antwort schon zu kennen, doch auch das ist ja nur eine Verschwoerungstheorie.

Es hoert sich nicht nur hart an, es ist es auch.
Reisende soll man nicht aufhalten.
Ich hoffe, ihr alle ueberlebt diese dreckige Impfung und das ohne Schaeden.
Ich habe nur heftige Zweifel!

Gute Reise :-(

Soziale Netzwerke

Ich bin zur Zeit in 3 sozialen Netzwerken angemeldet und ich frage mich, was das Wort "sozial" eigentlich meint.
Man sammelt "Freunde" wie Briefmarken, es wird gepostet, als wuerde es Preise zu gewinnen geben.
Man erwartet jede Menge "Daumen hoch" oder "likes" immer in der Hoffnung, dadurch noch mehr "Freunde" einsammeln zu koennen.
Die "Freundes-Listen" von "Freunden" werden durchforstet und Freundschaftsanfragen verschickt.

Nun, ich schaue schon genau, welche Anfragen ich akzeptiere und welche garantiert nicht.
Doch was folgt?
Man sieht jede Menge neuer Meldungen, Bilder, Videos und weiss der Geier was sonst noch alles.
ABER, von diesen "Freunden" erfolgt keine, aber wirklich absolut keine Reaktion auf das, was ich schreibe.
Bleibt bei mir die Frage offen, warum sie meine "Freundschaft" wollten.
Nur fuer noch einen "Daumen hoch" mehr?

Also entferne ich sie wieder aus meiner Liste.
Mir ist eine kleine Auswahl an "Freunden" lieber, mit denen auch mal Gespraeche entstehen, als die grosse Masse die glaubt, ich wuerde ihre Spielchen mit machen.

Locken

Es ist sehr kalt und meine Pferde haben ihre volle Lockenpracht entwickelt.
Sie sehen einfach zum Knuddeln schoen aus ♥

2021

Nach langem ueberlegen habe ich mich entschlossen, in Zukunft nur noch Deutsch zu schreiben.
Die Gruende sind zum einen privater Natur und zum anderen, weil die deutsche Sprache einfach die Sprache ist, die am aussagekraeftigsten ist.
Es gibt einfach keine andere Sprache, die so deutlich und exakt ist wie die Deutsche :-)

Nun haben wir also ein neues Kalender-Jahr.
Schon seltsam in Anbetracht dessen, dass jedes Jahr mit dem Fruehling beginnt, mit dem Erwachen der Natur, was nunmal logisch und auch nachvollziehbar ist.
Der Kalender wurde so oft veraendert, die Jahreszahl duerfte eh nicht stimmen, wozu also etwas feiern, was von der Kirche als Jahreswechsel und Feiertag bestimmt wurde? Der Todestag von einem Papst als Feiertag fuer's Jahresende. Oh man!
Mein Neujahr wird erst im Maerz beginnen :-)

Ich bin nur gespannt, wie es bei uns weiter gehen wird.
Immer oefter kommt bei uns der Wunsch hoch, hier die Zelte abzureissen und in den Sueden zu ziehen.
Der Tag wird kommen, das duerfte sicher sein, bleibt nur die Frage offen, wann.






Democracy

I could laugh so loud, if it wouldn't be so sad!

Just a simple question and I didn't got an answer.
If I have to ask for permission to demonstrate, what has that to do with democracy?

Well, my answer is: NOTHING!

Instead I got a lot of nonsense to hear, ask again and again, until I got an answer, very subdued: I think nothing.

Was it so hard? Really?
And then it came: But we are still living in a democracy ...
I didn't knew if I shall laugh or cry.
Next was, if people don't like it here, they can go to Hungary or Poland or Russia, there is a dictatorship.
Really?
I give up ...

How to accept?

It's pretty hard to accept, that those seems not to care about, I care about the most.
When there is nothing left for me, but to shut up.

Well, family isn't always what it looks like.

I have to accept it, a bitter pill to swallow, I only wish, it would be easier!

Worldwide stupidity

I wish, someone could explain, why so many humans are so obedient.
The government says something and most are following without ever doubting a thing.

I said today: We asked so many times, how all could happen under H. and the second world war.
Well, look around, how obedient the people are now, because of a virus, no one ever has seen, a virus with a missing proof!
The people keep distance, in many countries they are wearing masks, with a high healthy risk.
Children are suffering and dying, but still no scream and everyone is following, what the corrupt government is telling them.
Everything gets down, so much is destroyed and what are the people doing?
Nothing!
Some go for a demonstration lol so what, do they think, this would change anything?

I don't see any hope for the humans anymore :-(

How long is too long?

I'm wasting my time with waiting!

But damn it, for what?
A miracle maybe?

Stupid, I know, but I wish a very big one would happen.

Never say never, cause never never works

Well, in my case it's different.

These moments, when you know, that your biggest wish never will come true.
This stupid hope, he could stand in the door one day ... and then? Nothing more than shattered glass, broken into thousand pieces.

I've been alone now for too many years, a stupid believer, hold up by his words: I'm back home ... soon.
This soon never came and he closed the door permanently.



If dead or alive, he is gone.
And even if he is alive, I know, he is ways too cowardly to ever come back.
Like he was in the last years, afraid to show up and I never found out why.
Such a coward!

Really?

I said, I will come back and tell more about my new home.

Well, it seems, that I found a good place, but there is one thing, I'm not so happy about.
Dogs!
I mean dogs, can you imagine?
Ok, I wanna be fair, the old one is nice, kind and so careful. But the younger one, she is fast like a canon ball and always in a hurry. Good thing is, she is more afraid of me, than I ever could be about her.

And there are other cats, one came to say hello to me, her name is Silver. She said, she don't like to stay in closed rooms and told me about Ayla, that she will never come in, even not to say hello.
After she told me about her children, who are also not around, but walking around in the woods and on the fields, she left.

My human is searching for one more cat, a young one, my age, so I have someone to play with :-)

Here is so much to play with, but my human isn't always happy about it.
Today I played with one of the plants, so much fun, but when my human came back and she saw what I did, she only said disappointed: Amber, really?
And then she brought in this monster, it's loud and it's always so hungry. It ate all the dirt I placed on the sofa and the floor.
Such a shame, it was o much work for me to place it there and now it's gone :-(

Renovation

It was in time to do something in the house.
And I'm almost done with 3 rooms. One with new wall papers, that was the worst.
But somehow I have the feeling it's in need to get my own little part in this house, just in case, another woman could move in :-)

I haven't met her yet, but my oldest son seems to get serious :-)
Oh how I wish, she will be the right one this time and not only after money and the farm.
Not like this other bitch (sorry, but there isn't any other word for her), cause she only saw the farm and money.

Well, and if he is lucky this time and she would move in here, I really have to go out of their way.
Doesn't matter if we go along very well, they will need their own space, their own place, without me all the time.
I have my rooms and the kitchen and bath and maybe, don't know how yet, there will be a possibility to build some stairs outside, so they really have the rest of the house for them selves :-)

I'm open for surprises and hoping for the best :-)

My point of view

Hello :-)

I'm Amber, the new member of this family.
Yesterday was a very exciting day and also scary somehow.
First I was put in a box and before I even knew, I was alone, my mother and siblings didn't come with.
A lot of other smells and noises, and all in a sudden someone took me out from the box, only to put me in another one.
And then the human took me with into a bigger box and that was so loud. Not only that, it started to move and I was so scared.
My meow made the human opening the box and she took me out and into her arms. There was another human beside her, holding his hands on something round and only looking outside the huge glass in front of me.
It took so long time in this huge box but then the noise stopped and the box as well. And again I was placed in the small box.
Not happy, I'm telling you, I was not happy.
And so many new smells, better ones this time, I smelled animals and grass and a lot I don't know, but it smelled oh so good.

I couldn't see a lot, but the humans opened a door and we were in a house, at least one thing I know.
My box was opened again and I was allowed to come out.
A room with these soft things humans like to sit on and so much more, toys for me alone to play with and the thing I was able to climb up.
Food for me alone and a litter, not used by any other cat.
Now, I liked that a lot and after a while I found myself a place to lay down and sleep.

But so much was waiting for me to happen and I will tell about it another time.